Walking down the road of life

a day in zurich

2011-01-01T00:12:00.002+08:00

its day 3 i in swiss and my fren and i decide to have a walk in zurich.. so we went to take a train 8am in the morning all the way to zurich.. its a reli nice place and more exciting compare to luzern.. and there got more food and its cheaper.. walking down the street.. found alot of stuff but duno wat to buy for dear dear and daddy mumy.. its reli damn expensive.. haiz.. but did bought a boots for myself juz for dis winter.. anywway..
things reli din change much in my life.. but reli i feel so sad when everything juz the same like how is it in malaysia.. everyday dou xi wang when cal u will listen to ur happy voice de lo.. but end up emo voice.. haiz.. i reli duno how la.. anyway.. 2011 coming in 6 hours time.. hope everything wil b right..

God bless u all and happy new year..

2010-12-29T18:33:00.006+08:00

its second day i in swiss now. the weather here is seriously cold and reli i tak boleh tahan la.. lol.. anyway.. im bloggin here to let my dear dear know is happening here.. 7 hours time difference have made me n bii hardly to contact each other.. but i reli miss her so much.. done nothing much on the first day.. just the normal things like going to uni and go around the town to explore.. anyway.. reli hoping to see her next month.. miss her so much..<3<3 anyway.. here r some pics that i took wit friends when i exploring the town..

dis is when we dis our shopping in the afternoon

dis is when we exploring the town.. wakaka..

dis is the lake view nearby where i stay...

baby.. i know u are very sad coz we are far apart.. but i know our relationship are strong enuf for us to hold on this year and we will be ok.. i love you so much bii.. cant wait to see u arrive here and we go around the town and pakto.. even we are far away from each other but i know deep inside our heart we have each other.. stay strong k.. i love you.. <3

Problem Unsolved

2010-07-29T22:35:00.003+08:00

its gonna be another 6 months before i depart from M'sia to go to Switz for study.. haiz.. is it a good thing o bad thing.. seriously im trying to be excited bout tat but it just not happening coz of some1.. some1 i love.. i reli dun understand y u juz cant accept the fact that im going there for study and its just for a year.. 1 YEAR.. which is not long.. haiz.. reli dun understand y we fighting bout it everyday as it is juz a small matter.. and i do not go there to play or have fun.. i just go there for a better studies which can give us a better life after we graduate tat.. y muz u get so negative and think that a leave from me dis year will become the end of us.. that thinking reli makes me so so so sad coz i tot our love that is more than 1 year do not make u believe that a year is worth the waiting..

you will never know the much u dunwan me is the much i dunwan to go.. i reli bu she de leave u alone here as i already used to takecare of u everyday in college.. haiz... u think when i go there i wont miss u? i wont worry bout u?? haiz..

reli duno wat can i do now.. to cheer u up.. some1 help me pls.. tel me wat can i do.. o just kill me.. and everything solved..

2010-04-27T01:03:00.002+08:00

Ah Bii, Fat Bii wants chocolate, butterfly, fruit tart, Jus tea =x

= XoXo = ♥♥♥

Doink Doink =]

2009-11-01T20:23:00.003+08:00

I am so bored right now..So, i've decided to hack into this dead blog.

And say Hi..Awesomeeeee right!

I heard it says " Save me please " ! Doink, you are saved. Happy?

2009-09-09T20:59:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 09/09/09 (=

juz for fun..

2009-08-10T23:44:00.003+08:00

点名你们被点名了被点到的 ♥ 被点到必填，不填代表你不尊重传给你的人和问卷
(1) 请老实的回答每一个问题。
(2) 不行擅自塗改題目。
(3) 写完请点10位小朋友，不可不点。
(4) 点完后请通知那10位小朋友他被点到了。

被点到的>>1.BG 2.Meow 3.Fei Soon 4.Jermin 5.JT 6.Hezron 7.Ann 8.Yoke Hui 9.Jian Bee 10. Steph

01) 4号认识6号吗? - Sure
02) 10号是男还是女? girl
03) 8号的兴趣是? 8?? not sure la.. long time no talk to her liao
04) 1号有没有兄弟姐妹?1 bro 1 sis
05) 7号姓氏? -yeoh
06) 10号人缘好吗? Good dao.. XD
07) 4号有人追吗? Taken.. but i duno got ren chase not..
08) 承上2号呢? tak faham
09) 6号喜欢的颜色是? ]:: tak tau
10)3号和10号是朋友吗? mayb la.. mayb not..
11) 8号的生日是?sumwhere in december.. i think 23..
12) 5号读哪呢?nilai inti
13) 你怎么认识10号的? church..
14) 你跟1号的生日差几个月? 6
15) 你和9号有出去玩过吗? da gei suan? every weekend?
16) 你喜欢和2号聊天吗?like ah.. hehe.. she's special.. XD
17) 你喜欢和3号在一起吗? good friend since f3 le..== wat also do together.. apa u think.. XD

meow-3 so yea.. only 17 ques..

1. 是谁传給你这份问卷的:: Meow Meow
2. 你们认识多久呢:: 4 months++
3. 你觉得他(她)对你來说很重要吗::very 重要。
4. 你与他(她)的关系是::hehe... ^^
5. 你觉得他(她)的个性如何:: too friendly le.. XD talks alot le..
6. 请问他(她)的兴趣是::talk lo.. XD
7. 他(她)在你心目中是几分:: 85%

its kinda cool..

2009-08-10T23:43:00.002+08:00

Leave one memory that you and I had together!
It doesn't matter if you knew me a little or a lot, anything you remember!
Don't send a message, leave a comment in HERE.
Next, re-post this in your notes and see how many people leave a memory about you.
It's actually pretty cool (and funny) to see the responses.

1. What you used to call me?
2. Are we good friends?
3. When and how did we meet?
4. Have you ever had any feelings about me good/bad?
5. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
6. Describe me in one word.
7. What was your first impression?
8. Do you still think that way about me now?
9. What reminds you of me?
10. If you could give me anything what would it be?
11. How well do you know me?
12. When's the last time you saw me?
13. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
14. Are you going to post this in your notes and see what I say about you?
15. What is my best/worst attribute?
16. Anything you want to tell me?

saw it in wai jin's fb so decide to copy here.. hehe.. respond ppl..

stay o leave

2009-08-03T00:34:00.003+08:00

things are juz bothering me right now.. for ppl who inside this situation, even if i never say out u will know wat im thinking o talking bout.. i duno is it me o ppl reli changing.. group is breaking.. instead of looking everyone growing.. i saw ppl leaving.. its reli a heartache.. breaking o growing.. i saw breaking more than growing.. reli.. im disappointed.. there's no more the feel of being at home anymore.. no more support from each other when some1 down.. ppl is for themselves now.. thinking of leaving.. but i reli bu she de.. aiks.. mayb 1 more week.. then i decide.. juz 1 more week....

God.. teach me how to decide pls.. i reli duno how.. i reli duno

:D

2009-07-30T03:30:00.003+08:00

im on the mood of bloggin wei.. haha.. but hor i duno wat to write lo.. so yea.. simple 1.. :p yesterday went to breakfast wit one whole gang of class mate b4 go college.. college has been fun.. mayb because its practical.. haha.. learn how to serve a guess today and how to fold a napkin.. learnt six type wei.. but hor.. i think i forget how to do all liao.. haha.. anyway.. class finish early as usual.. then go to ou for shabu shabu with lam lam, deidre, eliz.. then hor jermin, his gf come and join us.. :p had fun eating there wei.. then meow meow and others came and we decide to watch movie--> the land of the lost.. :p tat movie is so darn funny wei.. but hor some1 very noisy inside de cinema lo.. makes me hard to concentrate de wo.. lolz.. :p after the movie then jermin fetch me back and others balik sendiri.. :p slept from 6 to 11 and im so darn awake now.. how ah? lolz.. my time is juz upside down liao.. haha.. need to adjust back la.. XD

anyway.. yesterday is wei han's bday.. hehe.. he's getting old liao lo.. anyhow... wish u happy bday la.. and happy always ya... :p sorry coz never go to ur celebration in wong kok.. belanja u futsal some day la.. :p happy birthday wei bro.. =))

Am i ready?

2009-07-29T02:06:00.004+08:00

sometimes this question just struck into my mind.. i reli duno am i ready for these that God is giving me now la.. aiks.. Relationship, friendship, college and other stuff.. aiks.. is God testing me? its like everything is keep repeating again and again and i juz face it the same way i did the last time.. i reli scare to let ppl down again juz like wat i did b4.. this feeling sucks wei.. how??

dis few days reli tired.. but i juz dun feel like sleeping u know.. having a sleepless night.. and class is tml.. mayb my life is juz in a mess.. haha.. wat do u think?

beautiful day~

2009-07-28T02:31:00.004+08:00

yoo ppl.. it has been a beautiful night rite.. :p loving it wei.. haha.. today is somehow great for me.. started the day in a moody condition and ended it with joy.. thanks to hezron lily and mostly baby girl.. :p haha.. well today reached college early for class but mr hor yet again late.. XD then they announce that mr don is on leave.. it means that i have no class from 11-3.. went cc wit jin and min.. XD fifa all de way wei.. hhaa.. its fun la.. but i juz cant cheer up coz of my idiotic emotions.. aiks.. untill duno y get emo and it juz continue till night.. and guess wat.. fought wit meow.. aiks.. sorry la yang.. i dun mean it k.. love u la.. mwah.. then around ten went out for a walked and stop by in playground to chill out.. its so cooling u know and the sky is so nice.. how i wish i got a camera to take picture of it.. :p then saw lily and chatted for few hours.. goodness.. til around 12.. hezron join us for the talk but lily going back liao.. so rite.. we went for burger and walked back to playground.. talked till 2.. well.. its so nice to talk to them u knw.. haha.. thanks wei.. feel relief alot liao.. but still.. i still hen qi myself lo.. i ever realise i din learn and change of my bad habits.. but thats me la.. aiks.. how?? i dun like myself bout tat wei.. XD

oh yea.. had 2 dinner today.. lolz.. first 1 wit kay lily and her housemate in yu yee for bak kut teh.. lolz.. then wit jermin and ning for claypot rice.. i eat alot oh~~ XD gonna get fat again.. haha..

im very sorry baby for fighting wit u k.. mei xiang dao we so fast then chao jia le.. hen dui bu qi oh~ wo zhi dao ni hen guan xin wo.. wo ai ni k.. mwah..

and.. i reli thank God for giving me a friend to talk to no matter where am i.. yuen when i in seremban and hezron when i in college.. they r reli a blessing from u for me God.. =)

that's all for now.. gonna sleep now.. ciaoz.. au revoir.. :p

current earfood-->keep you much longer-->akon

Day out with dav

2009-07-26T22:11:00.005+08:00

haha.. due to request by meow meow.. i have to update again.. XD ok la.. lets talk bout wat happen yesterday la.. yesterday is quite fun but tiring day.. XD haha.. lazy to write things la.. so yea.... to know wat happen go see this blog..

of course.. there's alot more picture.. :p and funny things tat happen..
hehe.. enjoyed the day.. thanks to dav.. =))
more outings? mayb.. lolz.
till then.. au revoir.

angry wit myself

2009-07-25T03:06:00.004+08:00

aiks.. im darn stupid lo.. haiz.. shouldn't have react like tat.. idiot... now im so regret of wat i doing.. haiz.. angry angry.. ish.. *smack head* cant sleep now la.. how?? haiz..

you are all that i wan and i need.. i miss u like crazy... =((
i love you i miss you and i need you...

updated.. XD

2009-07-25T01:34:00.003+08:00

okok.. time for proper update.. dis weeks is kinda busy lo~ alot things happen in between.. happy and sad.. relaxing and stressing.. boring and exciting.. i duno y la.. first sem finally over.. quite relief because no more exam and assignments.. omg.. u will never know how stress am i wei.. @@ results are quite good.. heard from eliz i get a for french.. but still duno la.. hope wat she says is correct lo~ others ah.. same la.. like usual.. hehe.. but all these are not official lo~ will get a official 1 soon..

after exam.. one week holiday came.. and u know wat.. tat is the worst holiday day in my entire life lo~ for one week stays at home and do nothing.. aiks.. cant find any1 also coz every1 is study.. KDU is weird huh.. get a time like this to holiday for us.. aiks.. but.. haha.. i finally go back cell.. after 3 months.. XD feel so good to go back lo and seeking back the feel i have last time.. and and.. sayang is sick jor during holiday.. worried ne.. but ok liao la.. now is my turn.. XD coughed for 2 weeks le lo.. duno wat's the problem wit my throat.. get so itchy lo~ haiz.. hope will get better soon la...

and now.. holiday over and my second sem start lo.. quite enjoyin as most of my time is doing practical.. hmm.. making food and serving ppl. wat more? housekeeping.. :p enjoying college now though is very de tired.. summore wat huh.. hmmm~ oh yea.. life is changing is college.. letting God to control now and not fighting wit HIM anymore.. moving forward and guess wat.. i enjoy more now.. yea...

thats all for now la.. hen sad now lo.. =(( haiz.. cant believe a happy day end wit my emoness.. reli dun understand myself y will like tat.. f*ck wei.. haiz.. gonna go emo now.. ciaoz.. =((

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2009-07-24T21:19:00.003+08:00

Harlo readers, im here to update my blog..Duhh, college was awesome but tiring... Qing (myself), this few days, i keep cough and haven recover from coughing yet. So, i must drink more water okayss ! Watched Harry potter, this movie was kinda nice but sad, cause my friends don't understand whats the movie's talking about..and today, injured my hand..bleeding..aiks, pain you know? After that, futsal time. You can imagine how tiring i am..Okayss, youth meeting now but im still here eating tau fu fa..haha..lolz...Will update the blog soon..pls wait! Rushing to youth meeting now..

2009-07-03T01:31:00.003+08:00

after a disappointing presentation i had on tuesday.. i reli scared i will screwed up again on the presentation tml.. aiks.. i duno y im thinking tat.. but reli.. i juz feel tat everything i do is not up to the standard la.. aiks.. how?? anyway.. i has been being a idiot on wednesday.. here's de story.. we supposed to hand up the assignment tat we need to present on friday today.. so i like rushing on it on wednesday until 2am and guess wat happen next.. when i get to college today, get a msg from bao bei says that we only need to hand up a soft copy of the presentation slides to the lecturer.. when i saw this, i was darn freaking shock.. it means that wat i have done for the day is useless for my assignment.. omg.. and the 'best' thing is we only need to pass up tat copy b4 our presentation.. then i start complain to jermin who sit beside me about this and tat.. lolz.. damn la.. it reli waste my time.. XD

anyway.. except today is quite good.. as usual.. become a fei chai in mr hor's class and entertaint every1... hehe.. and i get to know alot of things from different group of my class.. it seems like every1 is having their problem.. XD well.. i know it will get better in some way.. :p juz wanna tel u reli nice to talk to u all.. lolz.. will know u all better soon.. lolz...

talked to bao bei today.. and get to know alot thing bout her.. hehe.. dun worry la.. everything will be ok de.. need some1 to talk juz find me la.. i always ready to listen..
坚强点知道吗？我会一直在你身边支持你的！！

finals is like 3 days away.. omg.. and i not yet even start studying.. busy wit assignments and presentations.. @@ anyway.. everything gonna be over soon.. lolz.. 加油oh!!!

2009-07-01T19:15:00.002+08:00

disappointing week.. monday for me is like so tiring.. rushing assignment all the way to 3am.. and i got presentation the next day at 10am.. damn freaking tired... and guest wat.. i so darn regret i never talk during the presentation... aiks.. reli damn disappoited wit me.. after presentation then rellax for the whole day and get back home to sleep at 6pm.. and i only wake up at 8++ today.. :p im a pig rite.. hehe.. skipped 2 class today.. then fidalio exam.. duno y.. damn scared when i go in the exam room.. lolz.. but still.. managed to finish the exam in time... then.. i got a bad news from nicole.. ish.. so sad to tel tourism industry group assignment have to pass up tml.. wtf la.. tot can rest odi.. rush back home to take laptop then come to college again.. actually plan to do assignment but end up playing sdo lo.. lolz.. thanks to kelvin and lee moi.. wakaka.. i juz cant resist temptation la.. :p its 7.30 now.. every1 is back except me and kelvin..lolz.. need to rush assigment again.. omg..... dis week is seriously darn hectic.. pass up folio tml and presentation on friday.. then rest for 2 days then mpw presentation and finally.. my final... so tiring la... haizzzzz... wish time pass faster now.. so yea.. gonna rush assignment now.. XD till then.. :DDD

p/s: meow.. i got go ur blog la.. juz never write anything there ma.. dun la so sad.. hehe.. and y so sad huh.. wat happen?? tel me le...

ear food:-->>if you seek amy :p

2 more weeks..

2009-06-24T22:24:00.002+08:00

omg.. 2 more weeks.. 2 more freeking weeks and my first sem is over.. seriously cant believe it.. 3 months have passed so fast i dun even realised tat.. college has been tiring.. but i know the result will makes all these worthed.. 2 more weeks.. i cant imagine wat will i do when de day come wei.. so many plans ahead but i duno can all be done in tat 1 week.. hmmm.. but most important thing.. PAINTBALL... have planned for like 1 month plus and it still keep postponed.. thanks to every1 la.. lolz.. nvm.. the time is coming...... :p IHTM 7.. we gonna shoot each other soon.. muahaha.. but b4 all these.. assignments and exams.. @@

2 more mpw assignment, 1 more tourism industry assignment, 1 more tourism geography assignment, 2 presentation, 1 debate and 2 days of final... can u all believe i still got so much to do.. lolz.. 2 more weeks.. by 7/7/09.. everything is over.. muahaha..

chiong 2 more weeks.. i know i can do it.. because i know.. i can do all things through Christ who gives me strength.. God.. Give me the strength to go through 2 more weeks.. I love you.. :p

oh i forgot.. role play tomoro.. i can do it and i will do it very well.. i know.. i know...

6 months..=((

2009-06-15T01:57:00.002+08:00

You are everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it

this is the only thing i wan to say.. actually not we lost it.. is me who lost everything away.. but still.. you are everything that i want.. u will never know how much i want u.. aiks.. 6 more months.. 6 more months b4 i gonna end it.. i reli love you bii.. u still my bii do u know tat??? =(( aiks.. let see how God will plan to me.. 6 months time.. wat i wish is juz u coming back to me.. haiz..

so many things are bothering me now la.. aiks.. do i have any friend to talk to?? hmmm~~ idk la.. for the past month things have been nice.. pangkor trip was AWESOME!! i reli had fun there.. but it juz for 3 days and its all over.. life back to normal since then.. college was busy.. full of assignment.. lik i say.. now still got 3 assignment 1 public speaking and 1 paper to go.. and it will still come till my final come.. 1 more month.. then my first sem is over.. quick fast huh time passes.. other than that.. nothing special happen.. its juz assignments assignments and assignments.. im going crazy... help me God.. help me..=((((

2009-05-21T02:14:00.002+08:00

sometimes i just wish i got a place that i dun need to pretend to be something i m not..=((
im reli dying.. but who cares!!

A little too not over you

2009-05-21T01:53:00.003+08:00

It never crossed my mind at all
That's what I tell myself
What we had is come and gone
You better offer someone else
It is for the best I know it is

But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Memories suppose to fade
What's wrong with my heart
Shake it off let it go
Didn't think it would be this hard
Should be strong, moving on

But I see you
Sometimes I try to hide what I feel inside
And I turn around
You're with him now
I just can't figure it out

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

Maybe I regret
Everything I said
And there's no way to take it all back
Yeah
Now I'm on my own
I wont let you go
I'll never understand
I'll never understand
Yeah, ohhh.

Tell me why
You're so hard to forget
Don't remind me
I'm not over it
Tell me why
I can't seem to face the truth
I'm just a little too not over you

the songs said it all... =(( i duno y i juz cant get over you.. i missing u more and more in college.. aiks.. do u know wat u said cna juz changed my day upside down.. i love you!!! i reli do..=((

assignment is juz so bad... 2 more days and i not yet even start the fo assignment.. 1000 more words to write.. aiks.. and tg.. i have nothing to say anymore.. i duno wat to do n how to do the assignment.. i can juz go die now.. deadline is on friday n monday.. how la.. there's lots of thing spinning in my mind.. i reli cant concentrate in everything i do.. who can help me..=(((aiikkss.. life sucks.. i sucks..

starting fasting today... instead of start fasting for vege.. i decide to fast from 8-8.. sorry la.. 7am still sleeping... so yea.. fast at 8.. stil 12 hours rite.. aiks.. refresh me lord i pray.. im reli tired.. im reli tired..=(( i hope dis fast can make me stronger.. better..=((

2009-05-12T03:55:00.003+08:00

omg.. college life is getting more and more tiring.. lots assignments more to do.. and the due date is getting nearer odi.. and i juz done 1/4 of it only.. damn it la.. this is the assignments i got and the date to hand in..

French-22 May
Front Office-22 May

Tourism Geography(indivitual)-25 May

MPW assignment and T.G group assignment coming soon.. die la.. pray for me pls.. aiks

the good thing is pangkor trip is coming after i hand in all the assignments.. wakaka.. gonna have a good time there man.. =))) til then.. nitez..

Shot me til death... pls..

2009-04-30T01:49:00.004+08:00

aiks.. tis is so terrible.. everyday after 12.. the emo wil juz come find me.. haiz.. reli suck man.. i dun even know wat to do and guest wat.. now friend to talk to.. where is the place when i can juz break down and juz realise all the frustration in me.. when who wil b wit me everytime this happen.. i tried to b strong.. n i stil trying.. but things juz not working out the way i wan.. aiks.. i dun understand y.. its lik everything is against me.. is it tat hard to find a friend to talk to?? its lik i have no friends u know.. wat is friend anyway.. people that come to u when they r in trouble and dun even bother to care when i wanting to talk to them?? aiks.. Where is God.. sometimes i reli wondering.. aiks.. wat is he trying to show me.. haiz.. 3 months.. things get better at once and return to the stupid shape again.. seriously i damn f**ked up.. and there's assignment and homework to do.. but.. i juz dun feel lik doing it.. reli.. everyday at home.. i juz wanting to lie on my bed and dun feel lik doing anything.. haiz.. some1 help me pls.. haiz.. i wish there's some1.. for 2 weeks.. i juz had my meals once a day.. and tats only dinner.. aiks.. reli no appetite to eat la.. haiz... wats going on qing.. i never been lik tat b4 in my whole bleedy life.. haiz.. lots more thing to come.. trust me.. shot me more baby.. shot me.. juz lik how u shot me juz now.. u never realise wat u say reli killing me.. aiks..

for once i think i stil got hope to turn things around.. but yea.. no more hope now.. well.. u break it.. remember? mayb its time to let go totally.. but can i? do i wan? haiz.. i wish i know.. going back seremban tml.. hope can find some joy there.. reli hope tat wil happen.. aiks.. homework time.. aiks.. til then.. =(((

get lost pls..

2009-04-29T00:35:00.002+08:00

things is getting not rite now.. i dun understand y r u doing this.. aiks.. its lik losing u as a friend odi.. i dun lik this man.. suddenly nia.. last week we stil okok de.. y suddenly u r lik keep avoiding me oh~~ i dun understand la.. 2 days tak da cakap wit u liao la...=(( can any1 explain??

aiks.. past 3 days.. i had solo alot of shopping centre.. n its quite cool when u walk alone.. its juz lik driving alone at night on de street.. at least i wont think when i walk around n emo.. isnt it good?? lolz... watched the movie "the uninvited" today.. its quite nice.. at least better than coming soon.. trust me.. it worth to watch.. tml going anothe movie again.. SOLO... im in love wit movies odi.. muahaha..

thrusday going back lu~~ hope seremban wont as bored as here la.. haiz.. wat can i do?? any plan??

everything thing tat i do

2009-04-26T22:14:00.002+08:00

its ages since i blog.. this few day is damn moody.. aiks.. mayb im too scared.. im scared of love.. aiks.. wat if she come back.. how can i face her.. is it imposible?? things tat she say reli lik a knife stab in to my heart.. missing the time i drive alone in seremban.. when i can b alone and think.. aiks.. im tired la... aiks

anyway.. i decided to go back seremban only once in two weeks.. wont spend more money in ticket lik tat.. i hope it wil help alot in finance.. and yea..went to SIB again since the last concert of hillsong.. they r juz nice.. but its so different.. duno how to describe la.. but yea.. nice.. went to ikano today.. ALONE.. then to 1u.. never get to buy wat i want to buy.. i think wil go back 1 u again tml.. i drove today.. in KL.. thanks to Jermin.. wakaka... shiok la.. but stil gatal la my hand.. haiz.. n i think eliz scared of my driving.. lolz.. jermin say im safe driver.. lolz.. so shuang listen to them.. so yea.. ppl.. u r safe in my car.. trust me man.. lolz.. now.. alot homework left undone.. and i duno how to do la.. sucky nyer... but stil need to do.. so moody.. duno y.. sesat la.. im juz so in love in u.. do u know tat.. time to work now.. wit dis bleedy stupid mood.. ciaoz..

current ear food: Amazed-->>lonestar

dis song is juz so nice... n manis...

missing the moments

2009-04-23T19:02:00.003+08:00

today is kinda good for me.. lolz.. became tour guide after class at 11.. went uptown.. after go bank.. brought lily to br.. i cant believe lily never knew baskin robin b4.. == so gave her a treat.. lolz.. then went back class at 2..boring and nearly sleep in class.. mr hor is juz darn boring.. lolz.. sorry.. but its true..

went back home.. aaron called me to do part of segak wit joseph and his friend.. and i only realise how sucky is my body condition after a set of it when other do 3... they r mad.. lolz..

other than tat.. plan change again for the bleedy trip... for the third time they change location and they changed back to pangkor again dis time.. damn bleedy stupid.. they should juz set it on the first time.. babi sial~~

other than all these.. everything is fine except the memories in my mind.. missing all the moments i had wit her.. i love it but they makes me emo.. haha.. tats all~~ update at night.. ciaoz~~

I just cant make up my mind

2009-04-23T00:53:00.002+08:00

should i go back seremban on sat?? seminar is only from 9-12... i juz cant make up my mind.. finding a point to stay back here and going back seremban.. which is better.. i duno la.. aiks..

give some comment pls..=((

marine trip is canceled.. sad nyer.. now we ihtm7 is changing the trip theme into cultural.. and the place is penang.. stupid la.. i dunno wat to do in penang.. its juz... so so so boring...damn stupid la.. i rather go for national park if lik this.. duno y on earth mr arnand wil chose dis damn bleedy theme.. ish!! things around me never get better.. aiks.. there's no 1 tat wil understand how i feel now.. aiks.. not even her.. scold me more k.. scold...

I wish Im wrong

2009-04-22T01:11:00.003+08:00

tats wat happen b4 we are couple last time..
n its happening now.. u r doing to others..

is it only i thinking too much o tat is true.. aiks... i wish im wrong.. i hope im wrong..

boring

2009-04-22T01:02:00.003+08:00

yet anothe day pass.. i duno wat to do.. aiks.. the feeling.. its getting so weird.. its juz come and go then come again.. moody.. haiz.. reli have no mood to do homework now la.. dun even bother to ask wat to do.. teruk rite.. juz feel lik lying down on bed and juz listen to songs.. let me sleep.. but duno y i juz cant b lik energetic... i juz so tired.. mentally and physically.. damn la.. wats wrong wit my life now.. =((

class start at 8 tml.. til 12.. then break 5 hours b4 anothe class for 1 hour... stupid rite.. 5 hour break.. wil b sesat again...some1 help me pls.. =(((

and meow.. sorry.. its not i dunwan talk to u la.. but tats too personal.. u're not close enuf.. n u sendiri also got problem.. so yea...
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moody day

2009-04-21T10:36:00.003+08:00

aiks.. started the day wit the wrong way.. n these wil go on til i sleep again.. shit la.. i juz cant change the topic tat keep spinning in my mind now.. sry if i spoiled ur breakfast juz now in someway ppl... i shall remain silent today... talk to no 1.. do nothing.. breaking down odi.. breaking down odi.. aiks.. nothing wil go well today.. im sure bout tat.. im very sure..

Hard time coming

2009-04-21T00:08:00.005+08:00

haiz.. ppl.. how?? hard time is coming.. fyi.. my sister gonna start study in college tml.. wat i worry de most is family's finance...=(( recently.. daddy odi getting a headache because of my college and stuff... alot money have been spent.. aiks.. now my sister turn.. shucks la.. how r we gonna survive la..but God wil get us through.. i hope... =(( mummy keep saying its ok.. but i dun think it tat way... i know how hard is daddy working and findin all the project juz to earn tat money for our studies.. i know hows de our house financial going on.. im scared... im scared if i let them down again.. i dunwan b the failure in the family again...i done it once in my pmr.. i done it the second time in my spm.. college wil b the first time?? i dunwan.. i reli dunwan see them sad again.. i dunwan see them disappointed at me again..

and.. ankle is getting more pain now.. things is all getting harder for me now.. n more and more is coming in... and reli.. i have no 1 to talk to.. know how stress is it?? argh~~ im tired.. im tired!!!

bullshit.~~

2009-04-17T02:55:00.003+08:00

its juz totally bullshit.. no 1 knows anything bout it.. i juz cant tahan anymmore... they r juz bullshit k.. dunwan to say.. but they r juz f**kin fakers.. nonsense man.. nonsense..its bad to make me think now... i totally fed up and disappointed.. no hope.. dis idiot topic shouldn't been brought out at the first place.. damn it... damn!! getting trouble for myself.. good job qing.. good job..

Moment of boringness~~

2009-04-16T23:22:00.003+08:00

im bored now.. so decided to blog.. update bout college.. 27-29 comfirm go pangkor jor.. no more redang.. how sad nyer... today reli very bored.. morning class early finish.. then forgot the next class change from 12-1.. b an idiot wait for half an hour.. then after realise go library do homework.. im good boy rite.. wakaka.. then in class.. n guess wat.. mr hor late for 40 min.. sakai la him~~ when he come half of the class odi went back.. so yea.. after take attendance.. all balik..

when back to coll to gather for futsal later on.. futsal was so fun.. tats de first time i sweat alot since... i think 2 bulan... lolz... so shuang.. wanting for more.. jb asked me to go for paint ball next week.. should i go?? hmm~~ i wan play gun la.. mayb i should skip class for it..mayb... wakaka.. oh yea.. i found some gyms nearby.. wanting to join but the fees.. aiks.. can see cannot join.. sadnyer... wil negoctiate wit daddy.. hope he wil sponsor me.. wakakak..

night went for dinner near atria.. n realised how ganas is andrew and his gang.. wakaka.. the most popular phrase of the day from them.. i cant believe we are christians.. lolz.. farnie la they all... n now.. so bored... and hot.. duno y.. wil go movie later.. muahaha..

last thing....all the sakais.. pls update blog la.. i feel bored looking at the same thing everyday la.. u know i talking bout u.. wakaka.. move ppl.. move.. til then.. =))))))))

is tat de way???

2009-04-10T02:21:00.002+08:00

burning off everything she gave??? is tat de way to forget bout the past and moved on??? aiks.. tats wat andrew do juz to not blame himself and forget bout her when they broke up...should i do tat????? aiks.. i duno man... is tat reli de way?? dis few days i missing her lik hell... and i duno wat to do.. aiks.. something is missing again and i start thinking... well... u know wat happen when i think... im tired.. and there's no place to speak out everything i say... every1 is observing... it sucks man.. how i wish nothing happen b4... i regret... but i cant change the truth now.. argh.. nvm.. going to sleep.. blah~~~

call me stupid yoo~~

2009-04-09T01:07:00.003+08:00

ppl........ i have a GREAT news for u all.. haha.. i passed my jpj test today.. means u all can anytime cal me and i wil drive u all out from today onwards.. wakaka.. and for Aunty Esther.. finally.. haha.. i can fetch u now..

yesterday.. i came back to seremban after my class... seriously.. travelling back is juz darn tired.. after reach seremban.. i get my specs lens changed wit daddy and get back home.. im juz darn tired til i straight away sleep after i reach home.. til the next morning..

woke up at 7.. lolz.. early huh... uncle came and picked me up around 8... and i got my number.. its quite front so i finish the 3 section inside early..then.. the jpj person is juz so idiot tat they never follow the num for the test on jalanraya.. insteaad they are lik choosing papers and let the malays to take the test first.. damn it.. they makes me wait for 2 hours juz to complete 1 15 min test.. darn stupid la... after finish everything at around 11... i went back to sleep again.. haha.. such a pig rite... then i got a phone call from grandpa saying tat grandma is sick.. so~~ daddy n mummy decide to go for a visit and leaving my fat fat(bro) at home alone.. wakaka... then b and sleep again until 7++.. its time to wake up coz i need to go back kl.. thinking today got class.. when i reach du.. every1 is telling me tat today's class is cancel due to open day.. im stunned.. thinking how stupid am i to rush back here and get to know today got no class.. lolz.. u can cal me stupid now.. aiks.. tml no class.. it makes me duno wat to do tomoro.. any plan from any1/?? lolz... call me out k.. im waiting for ur call...

well...its 3.10am now..i thiknk i should go sleep now.. lolz.. ciaozzzzz..

Wrong thing to do~

2009-04-05T22:18:00.002+08:00

its odi around 2 months i without her... its reli sucks but yea.. wat can i do rite... today when in ktm... because have nothing to do.. i juz starting to think bout anything.. i mean everything.. and guess wat... she juz appear in my mind.. aiks.. i miss her so much and i juz wanted to cry at the moment.. aiks.. i know i shouldn't do this.. but yea....i miss her... i juz cant hide my own feeling u know.. haizzzzz...

anyway.. im sick now.. haha.. wanting to vomit and having headache at the moment.. this reli sucks..and not some1 lik her wil juz take care of me lik last time.. i miss all those moments.. aiks...

and ppl college starting tml for me... and driving test is lik in 3 days.. haiz... i juz duno wat to do.. i wil try to do my best..aha...pray for me yo~~ teehee... gonna go fellowship now in the house... ciaozzzzzzzzzzzz

=)))

2009-04-02T17:57:00.002+08:00

yo pppplll.. hows life..=))))))))
my college started odi 4 days ago.. it was fun~~ but the orientation and briefing is juz too boringgg....lolzzzz... well... got my time table today.. aha.. it is juz so horrible man.. i gonna study til from 8-5 4 day a week.. and guess wat.. on monday.. the class wil b from 8am-7pm without any break.. scary rite.. lolzzzzz.... well.. other than tat.. everything is juz cool in college... haha...

wil come back to seremban on saturday night after the trip to bukit tinggi in pahang.. hehehe... dun miss me so much k.. lolz...

oh yea... i found out alot secret here.. wakaka... aaron is badd... very bad.. lolzz...can black mail him odi using dis.. muahahahaa... and and... i crashed his laptop.. i duno how i done it... but yea... lolz..sorry aaron~~~~~~~~

til then~~~ ciaozzzzzzz

Wat if i cant?

2009-03-26T17:59:00.002+08:00

yoo.. college is starting in 3 days time.. 3 DAYS!!! aiks.. time pass so fast yoo~~
and guess wat.. im starting to scare odi.. duno scare bout wat.. juz scare.. haha.. cant believe rite.. hope i wil b alright.. wakaka.. but wat if i cant.. hmm~~

any1 help?? lolz..

Is this reli me???

2009-03-08T04:32:00.004+08:00

Your view on yourself:

Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

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Hmmm~~ Found this in some1's blog...=) is this reli me??

ask me fer link if u wan to do this test..

Save you.. Save me plsssss

2009-03-04T17:54:00.001+08:00

Take a breath
I pull myself together
Just another step till I reach the door
You'll never know the way it tears me up inside to see you
I wish that I could tell you something
To take it all away

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I won't give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

When I hear your voice
Its drowning in a whisper
It's just skin and bones
There's nothing left to take
And no matter what I do I can't make you feel better
If only I could find the answer
To help me understand

Sometimes I wish I could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall, stumble down
I'll pick you up off the ground
If you lose faith in you
I'll give you strength to pull through
Tell me you won't give up cause I'll be waiting if you fall
Oh you know I'll be there for you

(Ahahaha)
If only I could find the answer
To take it all away

Sometimes i wish i could save you
And there're so many things that I want you to know
I wont give up till it's over
If it takes you forever I want you to know
(Oh)
I wish I could save you
I want you to know
(Ohohh)
I wish I could save you (oh)

Dis song is juz now...=) how i wish she wil listen.. how i wish..

Please stop

2009-03-04T02:18:00.005+08:00

Aiks... ppl... stop talking and spreading romours anymore k.. wat u all think and talking is juz aint true....

plsssssssssssss STOP!!!

Give her a break will u?? Plsss.. dun treat her lik tat.. pls

:DDD

2009-03-04T02:01:00.003+08:00

getting thinner odi.. muahaha.. more... MORE!!!

because of u.. i become thin odi...

thank you so much.....

<3 you

My choise

2009-02-26T03:23:00.002+08:00

Made up my mind.. i know u all wil b not happy wit tat.. but.. i wil continue waiting.. waittttttttttttt... =)

aiks...

2009-02-18T21:09:00.001+08:00

i think i know wat to do odi... juz wait and see.. juz wait...

wait... do i know... do i reli know?????

aiks... this is juz badddddddddddddddddddddd... u know?? BAD...

Whats next???????

2009-02-16T01:32:00.002+08:00

camp is over...

Pre L is next--21 Feb

SPM result--12 March(not comfirm)

College--30 March

JPJ test--8 April o later

Currenly listening to---Still

Expect-2009

2009-02-15T23:22:00.002+08:00

Camp over... Bringing the feeling that moody and emotional and thinks wil i regret going to camp onot.. i can proudly says NO!! I never regret....

I can say after this camp.. this camp is reli great.. And God.. We know tat this camp wil never b lik tat if YOU are not there... All Glory to YOU!!

So... This is the camp.. My hearts was empty and im very moody when i reach the camp.. The passion to seek God and worship Him is juz lik gone... I never b lik me again...Anyway... at the first section of worship.. I kneel down and ask God to touch me... I asked him to fill me again... I feel lik the passion from me towards Him is back... But.. Im wrong.. Im wrong... The empty feelings back again juz after the service... I reli duno wat to do.. After the doom moment of tat night... I and Rufus and Warren went to canteen for a talk ...3 of us take our turns juz to tel bout our problems(juz to make ourselves feel more better)... And reli.. it works... We talked for lik 1-2 hours and they prayed for me after the talk.. Thank you... I appreciate it... And guys.. u all are good listeners... U rocks!! Then... I went to play cards wit joel they all and lolz.. I won almost all of the matches..haha... Is i too good o u all bad huh? haha.. well... we play until 4am and in between eugene joined us... then all of us decide to sleep.. but after lying a while on the bed.. i asked joel to go down for a walk.. at last we stop at canteen and talked til 6am then back to room to sleep...

woke up at around 7.45... feel damn tired... had 2 cups of coffee b4 go for service... morning service is awesome... Ps Juliet never reli preached... but she opened an altar for those who is new n lost the salvation... I stepped up.... And guess wat... Ps Juliet prayed for me... I stil remember when she walking towards me.. She sensed tat the song "Still" is wat i need... When i listened to the song... The tears juz poured out from my eyes... Presence of God is there.. and i feeling it... Ps Juliet prayed for me and gave me a prophecy... The prophecy sounds lik this...

I tried to makes alot of things and things juz not going my way... Im so worn up.. Im so dry..I prayed but things juz works against my will... I sins.. i wonder do God stil love me onot.. Do he stil care bout me onot.. Im so tired... He saw tat.. He stil love me.. He stil care... But Qing he said.. u shouldn't juz stand there... u need to move forward... u need to let go of the past... juz gv everything to him... let me conduct ur life... I have plans for u... Juz let go of the past... Juz let go of the past..

The prophecy reli speak through my heart... but i dunwan to let go.. there's too many things happen in between.. and its so nice... i love all the moment.... if plans have been made... i juz wanna add her in my life... in everything i do.... Juz let me add her in i say....

then service over after the altar.. i sat alone wit anne eugene ann and aaron wit me... after chilling down myself.. we went down for photo.. and lunch... and games... its tired.. but fun.. anyway.. my hand juz cant stop shaking til now after i play the crossing the bridge game(not because of scared k).. after tat...bath and dinner and wait for 3rd service.. This service is called 'The night' for me coz after the service we wil have altar and pastor wil pray for every1 of us... Ps Juliet also asks those who wan to be baptized in th Holy Spirit go for altar... I kneel down and ask God Use me now God to pray for the one who wants to be filled by the Holy Spirit.. And I knew God used me... I prayed for some guys and teached them how to b fill by the holy spirit.. after pray for bout 1 hour++ they got it... Bless the name of the Lord!! then.. we went for doom moment and for camp fire.... then... For the first time of my life.. I went to sleep so early in camp(2am)..

Third and the last day of camp.. I woke up at around 7.30...then i realise there's something wrong on my leg.. and guess wat.. colgate is everywhere... ish.. but thank God im not the only 1 who get it..hehe.. bathed and went for service... Ps Juliet asked Aspirers committee to step out to the altar... and every1 is surrounding us.. God reli moving on all of us.. After awhile.. I went for a corner and pray for myself and started question God alot of things.. I duno y..But it juz happened.. After all the prayers.... Its time to announce the winners of the camp... And as expected earlier b4... My team won..Finally.. After 2 years back to back become the runner up... Muahaha... Go greenvironments..=) Second place is red hot chindians...

Overall tats all bout camp...

Ppl... Wat i wan to say now is God wil never forsake you no matter wat... Just dun turn away from God when something bad happen to u o when u feel dry.... Dun ever run away.. Juz pray nd talk to him.. And trust me...God wil touch you in a very special way...

Lonely valentine

2009-02-12T22:01:00.002+08:00

camp is less than 24 hours...

valentine is juz 2 days ahead... this year i won b celebrating..haiz... i lost her...and she found some1... gonna b lonely..

hope camp wil b fun...wil update soon...

end of everything

2009-02-11T23:18:00.005+08:00

20 months.. tats de end of our story... well... u wan to study... i let u study.. juz be happy wit wat u have chosen k... i respect ur decision...

i know i need to let go... even if i dunwan.. coz forcing u to love me wont make both of us happy.... Just break for one year k? then we wil see wat happen again...

1 year of break... wil we to be together next year... i hope so.... all depends on God's will k.. by the time... i duno where wil i b... kdu?? o switzerland....haiz... juz hope tat u happy... i wil get my greds back and show u i can do anything for our future.... Trust me... I wil do it...

Juz be happy wit ur decision..i respect it...

but juz to let u know 1 thing.. i wil never let go of u.. i wil support u from behind... no matter wat... all the best in ur spm dis year...

I LOVE YOU!!

My Love

2009-02-11T15:13:00.002+08:00

Your Love is Based on Commitment

You believe that love is something that develops and grows.

You don't believe in love at first site, and you never mistake lust for love.

For you, love is about mutual devotion, respect, and understanding.

You don't feel comfortable in a relationship, unless you're both in it for the long run.

Why your love can last: You don't take commitment lightly - or leave relationships easily

Why your love can fail: You're so committed, you often can't see the most obvious problems in your relationship

What Is Your Love Based On?

You Are Trusting In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You give completely and unconditionally in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

half a licence is in ma hand...

2009-02-11T14:43:00.002+08:00

today went for undang test...and i passed in 10 min... lolz...hehe.. not bad rite..

well... Pre L wil b next saturday.. and uncle say the earliest test for my driving test is on 8 april..

so late huh... anyway..i got half of my licence odi.. muahaha...

True Friends

2009-02-10T01:56:00.006+08:00

What Is True Friends????

True Friends=friends tat care bout u, wil b wit u no matter wat, the 1 who comfort u, ask bout how u are when u are down/ something happen to u...

I hate ppl tat so called friends who comes to talk to u when u r juz somebody's bf/gf o wanting something to u... and when the couple broke off o some conditions changed... they wil lik F U no time man...(im not aiming any1 of u who reading... but ppl...check urself k)

FYI Dudes...

this is not friends man... You all are so damn fake when u all are doing this... And pls.. STOP it wil u???? coz tat is so SICKENING!!!

You cannot simply say she/he is a true friend coz i know her/him long time...Coz people...True friends wil never shown up until something happen to u... And guess wat... you wil b shocked when u find out who's ur true friend.. Reli... Coz im experiencing it right now...

Blog..

2009-02-10T00:10:00.000+08:00

Welll... Im starting a blog..

coz i reli need a place so shout out all the craps tat in my heart...haiz..